Be humble-Be real-Develop URself.
It took me a very long time to start understanding the concept of finding happiness from within. Many years passed by and I kept thinking I’d never find happiness. It didn’t matter what physical object I had, how much money I had or didn’t have, how many friends I had or how many classes I took in college. Nothing, and I mean nothing, ever filled that deep void within; especially drugs and alcohol.
Drugs and alcohol will never bring you any form of true happiness, just a momentary form of numbness rather than dealing with your pain and problems. Being happy takes work and I know that’s not what you want to hear but sadly its true. You have to fight every single day and work your butt off every single day. I know that sounds mean and judgmental, but I promise you I’m just being real you.
Let me ask you some questions. Are you a believer? Do you believe in Christ? Do you believe in God? Do you believe in anything? If you answered yes, here’s another question. When you made the choice to have that belief, did you immediately just feel happy and fulfilled? If you did then I congratulate you, and would like to know your secret, because that’s now how it worked out for me.
The reason I’m talking about Christ right now is because the best example I can think is choosing to accept Christ as your Lord and savior. So, when I made the choice to accept Christ, I was in a very dark place. I had just survived my suicide attempt, it was only about a year later and I was working out a lot. The pain I had inside me was being let out into the weights, and I was expecting to find happiness in the gym, but it never came.
My sister started telling me about Christ; She had dealt with depression for a long time and somehow it seemed like she was cured. Of course I didn’t really believe anything she was saying, but I was desperate and really wanted to find something to fill the void in my heart. Something good, productive and healthy. So I started taking small actions towards Christ, going to church, attending some bible studies, reading a passage in the bible here and there, trying to pray.
Finally the time came when I thought, I can accept Christ as my Lord and savior, so I did. Funny enough, nothing inside me really changed; The idea of Christ was there, the seed was planted even if I didn’t know it at the time. I didn’t know that I had to water that seed, nurture it, give it sunlight, tend to its soil and help it flourish. So, not long after I was back to the same old patterns, isolating myself from my family, my friends; having a bad drinking habit and abusing drugs. Some time passed and I got baptized because I really wanted to feel happy, and I felt something then, something different, something bright. Well, even after that I had a lot of moments when I still felt very unhappy, like my life didn’t matter, like I wasn’t worth anything.
Are you feeling like your life doesn’t matter or isn’t worth it? Believe me when I tell, it does! Your life has worth! If no one has ever told you that before now you know. Your life is valuable and it has worth.
If you’ve ever heard the phrase God helps those who help themselves, I’ve lived that phrase. I know what’s like to be childish and expect God to just make everything better because I want him to. Then getting mad at God when nothing changed. I know what’s like to have a moment of clarity, realizing that I have to put in the work to feel happy. I know what it’s like to feel fear and dread doing the work towards my own happiness.
A lot of us, a lot of you what the easy way out. You want someone to do everything for you, including finding happiness for you; but the kicker is, you have to find it yourself. When I started on the path of personal growth, I told myself I’m going to reflect on all areas of my life. Every single thing I decide to do or not do, I need to ask myself why I’m doing it and how it’s affecting me and everything else around me.
What are you holding on to that’s causing you so much grief? What is holding you back from finding happiness? What is making you think or feel like you don’t have the strength to put in the work? I challenge you to answer these questions and reflect on your answers.
For me happiness came in the form of letting go of passed traumas, letting go of the pain I had deep inside, forgiving people that hurt me, forgiving me for hurting myself, and accepting that I was broken and needed help. The wonderful thing about realizing your own flaws is that you can change them, you can choose good habits; You can choose to react positively to the bad times; You can choose to be humble about the things you have in your life; You can choose to be real with yourself, you can choose to develop URself.
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Be humble-Be real-Develop URself.